I Pray

I pray you never know
How much I love you
I pray you never have to care
That way you'll be spared the pain
When I finally fade away
Nothing is made to last forever
And soon I'll have to go
I pray you never know
How much I love you
I pray you never have to care
So when my candle's light is spent
You'll never have to cry

Supposed to Show

I can't find my way

Through this maze of weeds and decay

I looked to the sun

But found it blotted by clouds

I don't know which way to go

The road is too twisted and hard

I want to know

How daylight feels

But the night is drawn too tight

I wish I could see the road ahead

And mark my path in time

I want to walk again

Below that heavenly glow

Weren't you supposed to show?

The Witch's Song

I hear the witch's song in my head
The high, sweet laughter
The rhythmic tones
They swallow all other thought
And call to me
From distant shore

I feel the witch's song
Beat in my chest
A furious longing
For what I cannot have
Love I cannot grasp
Calling, as it were
From a distant
And forgotten past

I sing the witch's song
And try to match her tones
Seeking to find the divine
The righteous harmony
Secretly hoping my song
Haunts her
As her's haunts me

This Jouney

Cold the beds I have lain down in
And strange the paths I've walked
Into and out of many "lover's" arms
Only to have revealed
Distant and empty hearts

My way is guided
By a single brilliant star
Burning in the deep-set night
She remains forever outside my grasp
And I weep most bitterly

My will is ground
To dust and blood
I wake with empty eyes
And pray for the night
So her light may fill those orbs

Cold, the beds I've lain down in
And strange the paths I've walked
Every step brings me closer to her
And I hope that across
These sundry lifetimes
I may finally hold her close
And find my journey's end

Raven

I am tired
So very tired
But of what
I do not know.
Still, I see the waters
Grow brackish
And the sun settles
Behind shadows.
I feel the chill world
Move slower and slower
On its cosmic gears.

I hear crying
Somewhere far off
But coming nearer.
I think she may be a grieved lover
Or the beansidhe
The fairy woman
Who cries when no one else will.

When my touch fails to spark
Will you cry
Or let the sun set?
Who am I to make you choose?

When we walk these cold, cold streets
When the ghosts scream around us
Are you afraid my soul will blow away
And join the ghouls about us already?

Will you dream of me when I'm gone
Or will nightmares ride your mind
On mahogany raven's wings?

If I entreat entry
At your chamber door
Will you let me in?
Or will you let
The warm tears flow over me?
It'll shrink my cloths
So the biting wind
May bite a bit deeper

The music doesn't sound anymore
You think I never listened
But I heard the lilting lullabies
I remember the angst-rock
The singer screaming futilely at fate
And loss.

Remorse doesn't tangle this place
What sense could I have of it?
Am I supposed to be sad
Over something that's bound to happen anyway?

Escapism is the key
It always has been.

Are we still chasing rainbows?
Or is it all gray again?

Will my ashen skin fail
When the blood flows again?
Does ash dissolve in blood?

Can you see what your sweet misery
Has done to me?
Can you feel my body draw
The heat from the room?
I can't feel it anymore
I did when it started
But it's made me numb now.

Whose life is this anyway?
Is it really my sun that's gone?
Or is the world of someone else
Ending?

Touch me if you do not fear the chill
But know
I cannot hear your voice
All I hear is sobbing
Far off
But getting closer
Touch me
But don't block my sight.
In the fading light
I want to see her
The beansidhe
The one who cries for me.
She brings a raven
To block the remaining rays.
She'll raise me from this cold place
And I will go with the ghosts

I will have my fairy woman
And we will play in fields of ebony
Beneath skies of purest white
Here the raven's will never fly
And the sun will never set
And my fairy woman will sit
Content and smiling
And will no longer have to cry.

Angels

Talking with you
The chime of your voice
Each syllable
Pure poetry


To watch you move
A girl of grace
You must be an angel
And yet I don’t see the wings

Still you soar

Motes

Little motes of ice
Hang in a stray sunbeam
Lost in a pause
That stands for all eternity
Hanging there
Held up by golden light
Never to thaw
Never to melt
Just to hover there before the window

Basking in the golden light.

Old Song

Can you hear the music sing?
Words and hymns riding the wind
Telling of times long ago, before we forgot
The magic, the fey and the rest of that lot.


As children we saw the faeries fly
And were afraid to hear the beansidhe’s cry
We knew about the gnomes behind the shed
And the demons lurking beneath the bed
We loved this magic that we saw
The extension of imagination in the raw.


But now our minds are far too tight
Too secure in what we know is right
When we were children we heard the song
But our parents told us the tune was wrong.


Now our lives are too concrete
To clean, far too neat
So rare are the elves of the younger days
Invisible to us are the hidden ways.


It’s very sad to see this magic die
The last notes of the song are nigh
But if you listen in the ‘tween times
In your heart you’ll hear the lines
And all the rhymes and every note
This small fact gives me some hope
For as long as the faintest whisper is in the heart

We will always be tied to that magical spark.

Drop

Every drop of rain that falls
Is only just a small amount
Yet from that center
And radiating out and out
It changes the shape
Of the entire ocean

Scars

These scars you left
Are the language of my soul
Each a character
In the undying poetry
Of this tiring spirit

In SIlence

Bury me in silence
Cry none of your tears over me
Mourn not for a soul
Who has finally found peace
A wanderer finally at the end
Of a long and wearisome journey

On the Edge of Tongue

There is always something
Just on the edge of tongue
I choke it back
Because I must
But it still cries out to be spoken...

Fixed

There is no way to fix this
The horror playing out in my mind
A darkness to which
No light can be applied
Without itself being destroyed

Monster

I forgive you
For all the pain and nightmares
I forgive you
For a shattered youth
And broken mind
I don't know what possessed you
Way back when
To do such grievous harm
But I forgive you
I know you are not
What you once were
I am finally ready
To let it go
You are a monster no longer....

Vice

She doesn't know
How deep she strikes
Every time she speaks
Her silken voice
A vice and poison
I'd happily ingest

Demon Rising

I feel him take hold again
Inside my brain
Infecting my heart
The demon is rising
Up through the shadows
To once again
Eclipse the sun
He looks through my eyes
Shows me the world
In colors of decay
He haunts my dreams
And promises me only agony

I Don't

I can say I don't adore you
And live with the pain it brings
I can say I don't love you
And let my crippled heart
Beat its tired dirge
I can say I don't need you
But I think I do
And that is a lie
I simply cannot tell myself

Naught more then words and paper
Naught more then ink
I am lost in labyrinthine language
Trying to express what I think....

Faint of Heart

In a moment of weakness
You looked my way
And left me faint of heart
To look around
At the grime and dirt
Longing for the greener grass
On your side of the bridge
But in crossing I realized
I left too much behind
And could not burn this bridge
As I must
So I turned
And left you lonely
With tears in my eyes
I return to where I came
Content, I suppose
To look to your side
Sigh, and take a moment
To be faint of heart

Beautiful Soul

And now the sun has begun to sink
Bringing the night to blanket
This beautiful soul
I sing a final serenade
You sing your final dirge
I shall fly to meet the stars
And ride with the moon across the sky

Excerpt from 'The Destroyer" (A Long Road Novel)

"You mean to tell me you're an accidental Walker?"
"Yeah, I'm a...wait, what?"
"Dammit," the man put his head in his hand, "I thought you were reinforcments..."
"Sorry to burst you're bubble..."
"You don't get it do you?" the man walked over to a telescope on the side of the flying ship, "Look," he said, motioning to Jake.
What Jake saw through the telescope was horrifying. An idescribably large creature mindlessly devouring the countryside. It grabbed huge fistfuls of earth with it's three fingered hands and shoved it into a maw filled to the brim with teeth the size of skyscrapers. It hadn't finished chewing before it started to grab more. Anything caught in its grasp was stuffed into it mouth.
Jake fell backwards, "What the...what the hell is that...?"
"The Destroyer," the man replied, "A beast that should be extinct, but instead threatens all living things in the multiverse..."
"What are you talking about? What's the multiverse?"
"All the different realities, stacked on each other like marbles. People like me, and you apparently, can move between them if we have the right key. We call ourselves Walkers," He pointed to the distance, where the Destroyer continued to feed, "That thing, that endlessly hungry abomination, is a Walker too...."

All You've Lost

You watch her walk away
Into the cold lonely night
And mourn the days
When she was all you needed
As the soft rain begins to fall
It hides your tears
You soon forget
The bitter times
And as her image fades
Only sweet, lilac memories remain
Her arms around you
Nights in front of the fire
A silence that spoke a million
Kind hearted words
Once she was all of your world
Now she is part of all you've lost...

Autumn

No moon or stars
To guide me home
And autumn'ss golden glow
Shall pass again without me

Ants in Amber

Memories crystallize in my mind
And like ants in amber
When seen through that golden hue
Are more beautiful
Then they ever were in life

Pray

Pray for those
With whom the shadows walk
For the nights are longer and longer
And the dawn's nowhere in sight

My Love

I've seen my love
Through windows that span the universe
She sits alone
In her cold, cold tower
Waiting for Prince Charming to come

Oak

Before me stands an oak
Whose shadow divides
The dusty rays of the sun

Science

Science tell us that every tear

We've ever shed

Is still out there somewhere

Our sorrow scattered no matter how minutly

Forever extant in the universe

And though that, indeed

Is a bit of a grim sentimate

Remember that moving through the cosmos

Perhaps in equal measure

Is every single second of laughter.

Say Goodnight

There are quiet times
I wish I could hear your voice
The stars shine and hum
But they can't help me sleep
Your lullaby is what I want
But you are so far far away
And every time we talk
It gets harder and harder
To say goodnight

Washing Hands

So much harm done
Never once intended
We hurt those we love
Through simply
Unthought through acts
And we try and try
To wash our hands
Of the pain we cause
But somehow
The stains never go away....

Temptation

She calls herself temptation
Though never to my face
She only ever uses the name
When she dances in my dreams
And even then
She only whispers
In a breathless sigh
Before she kisses
Every inch of exposed skin
She asks me if I want her
But I always wake
Before I commit the sin
Of giving her an answer...

You Fade

Just as quickly
As you brought your light
You fade into
Velvet night sky
And leave me tired
Broken and alone

Forced smiles
And fractured faith
Tested and tried
And falling to pieces
There is nothing
To salvage here anymore
It's all fallen to rot and dust
The sun has set the final time...

Call My Name

I stand in static silence
Waiting to hear your voice
I do not hear anything else
My ears have been trained
My brain, silenced
To the hectic, frantic sounds
Crashing around me
No, I wait hear
In self imposed exile
Waiting for you to call my name

Wicked Garden

I want to run through
This wicked garden
Taste your sin on my lips
And feel the sweat
Stand out on my flesh
I want to lie with you
Hidden from site
In long grasses
Away from prying eyes
I want to be freed
By the power you have over my heart
I Want to bask in your beauty
There is a world out there
That we can forget
Find warmth in each other's arm
Fire in each wicked touch
Go somewhere
Where the world can't hear
Our impassioned screams
I want to run through your wicked garden
Feel deep this beautiful sin
And in your arms
Forget the outside world

Her Gaze

I meet her gaze
Steady, with my own
And I pray she doesn't waver
For at this time
She is my rock
My foundation in this world
Without that steady gaze
Holding mine
I would tailspin into dispair

Misery

They say misery loves company
But it certain attracts none
I shout and I shout
Into the void
And hear no return
But an echo

Vampire

My veins are yours to draw from
Take from me this life
I've no further need
For this warmth
Or this breath.

Let my blood
Be your wine
And let me pass away
Let my memory
Fade away
Into bitter shades of grey.

Let me bid
A fond adieu
To dawn and dusk
And those pitying
Sunlit rays....

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I crave the harmonies
In your silken voice
To taste the salt
On your lips
And touch your alabaster skin
I long to fall into
Soft oblivion in your arms
And soar with angels
On the tide of your gentle whispers
I would take you hand
And dance to the music of the night
Below the moon, in the ancient silver light
Two souls, unknowingly desperate
Finally finding each other.

The Weight

Shoulders bow below the weight
A pain sincere and sacred
Someone told me that this was important
Somehow making these sacrifices
Would make it all that much better
But somehow the boulders
Keep getting piled on
And my insides become
All that much more hollow.

Touch My Heart

Deep inside
A world so cold
I've been waiting for your spark
Something in your eyes
In you voice
Ignites a flame inside
Something about the way you are
Something in your smile
In a ray of sunshine
Through the darkest clouds
To touch
And lighten my heart

In Darkness

It's dark all around

The stars the only light

A lonely soul

Waits shivering in the cold

Waiting for his muses words....

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In a dream
On a boat
Floating among
The tupeloes and Spanish moss
Searching for a beauty in the bayou
Listening to the cicadas hum

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Finally it seems
The clouds are falling away
And I hear the voice of an angel
Orchestrating the rising of the sun

Blithe Muse

Blithe muse
So unaware of your beauty
You dance though my dreams
And sing the songs
Of my poetry
Like a spirit you rest
Just out of my grasp
But the words
Flow from my pen
At the merest suggestion of you

She

She rides in the chariot of the moon
Cloaked in stars and velvet
My angel soars across the heavens
Tempting my heart to follow her
So far away from my touch
But nearer then she seems
I hear her sing her lullaby
And I sleep knowing she sings for me

Muse

Divine muse
Don't leave me now
Speak again my name
So I may draw poetry
From the music in your voice

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Mysterious stranger
Raven-haired and beautiful
Why do you haunt
My once restful dreams
Your lips
Red as candied sin
Sing those longing melodies
That my heart so wishes to hear....

Never Really Been

The nights are very strange
When I close my eyes
Faces I've not known for ages
Come to visit me again
You whispered to me
Words you never shared
And told me things
I'm certain you never felt
But still I relish
This sweet imagining
Tucked in my world
That has never really been

Anchor

There is a world within that can never be lost
Secrets never to be shared
We carry an anchor about our hearts
Some unrequited affection or another
To say I love you is a small thing indeed
To hold that love sacred
Another thing all together
So secreted away
Amid the debris
In a darkened corner of my heart
Every line of poetry you ever brought forth
Every word composed for you
Never, I suppose, shall it ever see
The light of another day
But I carry it with me always
An anchor about my heart

Melt the Stars

A poet does the best he can
With such crude and insufficient words
Trapped by phrase that simply cannot
Exactly map the world in his head
He is forced to write
Such simple and childish things
When he longs instead
To have the words
To shake the Earth and melt the stars

Snare

I see your face
By candlelight in my dreams
I hear your voice whisper to me
My imaginings tug at my spirit
And draw me into such a splendid trap

A snare, you are, for my heart and mind
But I one I would willing enter
For this is such a pleasant torture
You are such a sweet temptation
A snare indeed
To capture this soul
And drive all my peace from me

Metallic Solstice

I watched the moon
Like a silver coin coast
Through the inky sky
Outshining diamond stars
And illuminating the iron earth
A lone beating heart
Upon that cold surface
Looks out 
Into the metallic solstice
And hopes to hear a single word
A single breath
To prove he's not
The last one alive

Forgotten Words

Below a floorboard in a forgotten room
In a book caked with dust and memories
A little boy wrote all his thoughts
On now yellow and fragile paper

In those ink stained pages
A heartache no one ever saw
A darkness no one could ever understand
A fear and faithlessness
A soul so young
And still so broken

No one ever saw the book
His feelings got him ridiculed
He learned to hide his inner works
And share them only with the paper

There could be no genuine smiles
No honest laugh
He carried so much pain
Locked up in his chest

He never exploded
Let it out little by little
With words and razor blades
He could never hurt another soul
Never let another feel this kind of pain

Does a man feel the same way as a child
Have the same fears
The same pain
I look into the darkest night
And cannot find the answer

Wilted Goddess

I pray at the altar of a wilted goddess
Her body wrecked and warped
By false prophets
Who sold her to main stream media
One true believer remains
To hold her plague ridden hand
And hope for quick recovery

As a reminder, if anyone really likes my poetry, you can pick up a copy of my book here:

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Inwards

Perhaps I'm a little crazy
My mind can't settle down
Casting my thoughts down many
A cramped and dusty hall

The tides of memory wash over me
The pain of the heartache I've caused
But still the old patterns persist
And I see myself walking that road

I turn my torment inwards
So you never see the scars
I just flash that charming smile
And tell you everything's alright.

Novelty

The novelty wears thin
On a gold plated ring
Soon the shine is gone
And lead has no luster to speak of

Static

The static fills her mouth
With a raw metalic taste
Her screams are nothing
But half-channel noise
That no one hears

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